You Spin Me Right Round, Baby, Right Round

There were 3 guys on my radar the last time I posted, and go figure, I worked with all of them at one point or another. I guess when you spend so much time with someone, you just naturally bond with them. Or is it that you don't have the opportunity to meet anyone else? Whatever the case, I have a few updates.

I finally got my date with the "pool guy" as he's been so aptly nicknamed. We hit it off really well, even after I told him that I really wasn't interested in hookups or fooling around if there's no relationship in it for me. I want to believe that he's changed his partying/sleep with anything that has a pulse ways, but when I knew him really well, that's all he did. As such, I have a really hard time believing that he wants to spend time with me for my company and not my curves. We kissed a fair bit during our first date, the first time I'd seen him in over a year, and I was shocked at how well we meshed. Usually when you kiss a new person for the first few times, it takes time to learn the other person. That first kiss is destined to be awkward and not very enjoyable. Enjoyment while kissing is a kind of thing that comes with practice. But not us, from the first instant it was like we'd been kissing for years. He had to leave early to help out a friend, and I expected a phone call the next day like he promised. I should have known better. I got a msn message a week and a half later, saying he'd been busy. That's exactly why I gave up on him in the first place. He's asked a couple of times since then when we can get together again, and I've hmmed and haawed at it. When I reminded him of my new-ish rule, and asked him what he thought about it, he said he wasn't completely opposed to the idea of a relationship, but that he has a lot of stuff going on right now. I'm not sure if he meant in his life, or romantically. I've got a lot going on too, on both fronts, so I can't really blame him. In all honesty, I'm not sure what to do about him. I desperately want a relationship with this guy that I've pined for for the better part of two years. On the other hand, he treats me like crap, and I should know better. Frankly, I'm not positive that he won't agree to a relationship, sleep with me, and then break it off immediately afterwards.

The next guy, the 34 year old. Nothing really has happened, one way or another. He's been working different shifts and I just haven't seen him. We discussed the possibility of going rock climbing a few weeks ago, and I would dearly love to go (both to spend the time with him, and because I really really miss rock climbing and feeling so great afterwards), so I just may give him a call this week and take him up on it.

The third guy, the lifeguard I wondered about. Turns out, he is interested, he's just incredibly incredibly shy. We've been on a few dates, the first 2 of which we're intensely frustrating as he didn't act the least bit smitten. Once I got to know him a little more though, we've both become a lot more comfortable with each other. We have far fewer awkward silences, and we're both more affectionate. I'm almost glad it took this long. I feel like this is the way its supposed to be, as opposed to hooking up on the first date and whatnot. We haven't made anything official as of yet, I'm sure some of the lifeguards he works with suspect something. We were a little affectionate at the pubcrawl a few weeks ago, but everyone had been drinking so I'd be surprised if anyone took anything anyone did or said seriously. I guess we'll see how this one goes, but so far I have a really good feeling about it. It felt a little off at the beginning, but its starting to feel quite right, and I have to say, I'm enjoying it. :)

More to say later, it's 2 am and bed is calling.

-Este