Friday, July 20, 2007

Progress for Progress's Sake Should Be Discouraged?

Excuse the Harry Potter reference. That is, if anyone caught it in the first place. I saw the movie last week and HATED it. I was bored out of my mind and I used to be a Harry Potter nerd. In hindsight, rereading the book just before I saw the movie was a bad idea. It just made every little thing that they changed stand out all the more. And the continuity mistakes!!! The dementors and Sirius's head in the fire are the most memorable. You can't change the exact same thing in consecutive movies and expect no one to notice. Mind you, I have to say its much cooler in the most recent movie, but still. I had planned to reread HBP before the last book comes out, but frankly I'm kinda sick of the whole HP world right now, not to mention feeling a little bit gypped. So instead of HBP I started reading the book I got at commencement for that award. Divisadero by Michael Ondaatje. Yep, that's right, Ondaatje. I suppose it's a good sign that I'm not bored out of my mind, but I'm only 20 pages in so far. I actually have my eye on the new book in the Kushiel series. Part mystery/suspense, part historical fiction (think Man in the Iron Mask type of writing), part Harlequin romance, they're addictive. They're also only available in hardcover and cost upwards of $30.

But enough about books, on to the reason for the post. What else would it be, other than the male population of the world?

Just when I thought I didn't care about Kyle anymore he finds his way back into my life. Funny innit? Way back when, he told me that everytime we'd worked together he wanted to kiss me. I asked him what it was that he wanted from me and he responded with "more than one night" which is very ambiguous if you think about it. After that he stopped talking to me altogether and I got sick of saying hi to him on msn and not receiving an answer, it made me feel desperate, so I stopped. Then yesterday he showed up online and I knew he was really there so I figured what the hell and said hi. We had a short conversation at the conclusion of which he left first, making me feel a little annoyed, but then I decided I didn't really care and didn't think anything else of it. Then later that night he started up a conversation with me for the first time in months. It got a little risque at which point I told him flat out that I don't give it up that easily so if he's only interested in sex from me then he can look elsewhere. He said that's not all he's looking for but when I asked him what he was looking for he replied "I dunno yet", reminding me of another cryptic guy who sent mixed signals at one point.

So PMI for old time's sake:

PLUS
-he's interested in something
-it seems likely I'll have sex again before Sept.
-even if its not really a relationship, its physical comfort
-it'll stop my crazy guy obsession as of late

Minus
-he's out of town for the next 2-3 weeks
-I'm moving away in 5 weeks so its not like it'll be long-term at all
-my willpower is next to nothing so I'll likely end up doing something I regret with him early, pretty much what caused me to end my last 2 relationships

Interesting
-he knows I'm leaving in 5 weeks so is he only doing this now because he knows there's an expiration date or is he truly interested?
-do I even want this?

4 comments:

Daydream Believer said...

You think too much, hun.

Daydream Believer said...

Rawr. Update.

estelover said...

I could say the same to you half the time.

Daydream Believer said...

But not right now! Muahahahaha! I win. :P