Love is in the air...or is it?

I had intended to go right to sleep when I got home tonight, but once home, I realized that I couldn't sleep without first purging my system of what's on my mind. There isn't much to really purge, since purging generally conotes something bad or unwanted. In general, life is going well for me right now. I'm back home and the sense of unease has mostly dissolved. I was repainting/redecorating my bedroom for a couple weeks. That's mostly done now, I just have to put up my paintings from Mexico and the sketch of my mom and I. I haven't decided where yet, but once they're up, then it will truly be finished. The colour is called Cool Lime, and it's exactly what you'd expect from the name. I absolutely love it. Every time I walk into my room I sigh with relief and relax. It's perfect. I'm back to work as well, started back last weekend. So far I'm only working weekends, but in a couple weeks I'll be getting my full 24 hours/ week. It gives me something close to a $700 paycheck every 2 weeks. Not too shabby. I'm not sure yet if I want to get a second job or not. I would dearly love to be able to pay off my student loan within the next 6 months, but I'm not sure if it's worth not having much of a "weekend" break. I've found that I really need that break or else I start to burn out. I still don't know what I'm doing or not doing about school next September, but it worries me less now than it did a month ago. I'm sure I'll figure it out.

I was thinking the other day, it's been over a year since I've had a functional relationship that's lasted more than a couple of weeks. It made me a little sad. And then I started working again and noticed a couple of guys around there. One is a lifeguard and as such is probably unattainable for anything more than a hit-it-and-quit-it relationship, but I guess you never know. He seems like a nice guy. I'm hesitant to say that he's interested, because I really can't tell if he is, or if he's just really friendly. I had planned to ask him out today, but I never got the chance, nor the same vibe that I got last week. We'll see how it plays out I guess. The other guy is sweet, kind, and most of the other things I look for in a guy. We're at similar stages in our lives, have relatively the same taste in movies, music and tv shows, and we get along great. He had me laughing and, I'll admit it, flirting, all day. Two big problems though.....I work with him....and he's 34. He routinely dates 20 and 21 year olds, so I imagine 19 isn't a far stretch. I'm absolutely positive that he was flirting with me, and asking me loaded questions like "are you going home after your shift or going to meet the boyfriend?" and stuff about society's views on the age difference. We share many of the same life philosophies and I feel like if it weren't for the age difference, I'd be snatching him up in a second. I do have to consider it though, but as Kat so wisely put it: "if you have to decide if you like someone or not...you like them." Something to think about.

I went out for dinner and a movie with Kat today after work. We went to Moxie's, as usual, but we ordered drinks for the first time, since neither one of us had been there since we turned 19. I had a mango cremesicle or something like that. It was really good but had orange juice in it with pulp. I hate pulp. :P I drank it anyway though. After that we hung around for awhile and gossiped, and then went to see Forgetting Sarah Marshall. It wasn't as funny as I thought it would be, but there were still plenty of laughs the entire movie. It was exactly what I needed. A perfect romantic comedy to play off of my guy uncertainties. It ended exactly the way I hoped it would and was just absolutely perfect. I feel like I'm back in my groove now, so I'm going to bed before that changes.