Tonight marked my transition from "maybe I should think about getting some help" to "I need help". I guess I'm wearing long sleeves tomorrow, no need to worry my TA. In a few minutes it'll start to sting, and I'll start to regret. But right now the burning is enough to make me stop. Right now I am mostly calm. Right now I don't want to bleed, just block it out. Right now I don't want to slam my wrist against the wall. Right now I am almost okay. Almost.